Self Deprecation - Too Underworld For Reality

I submitted these last summer for a weight loss blog that I followed then for a blog hop called "Why I Do This Here".  These were my reasons "why".  I don't have any kind of photo editing skills so they are kind of primitive.

 

I probably weigh about ten pounds less than these pictures now but the feelings are still pretty much the same.  I have more education on how to take care of myself better and have been doing so but I know I'm still a bit too focused on "the weight/the look" etc.                                                                          
Without even realizing it I think I may have stumbled onto a new approach.  In the past week or so I've been really drawn to Persephone.  Persephone is considered "the Goddess of Transformation" and I never really realized that so much of my life echoes her myth.  Persephone is a Goddess that has a type of dual nature.  There is the typical picture of her sort of wandering in an ethereal way through a field of flowers.  Perhaps because of this it is kind of overlooked that she is also the Goddess of the dead/the Underworld for part of the year.  And maybe it is sort of an odd way of looking at things, but as I was thinking of her story I realized that because she gave in and ate something that she really didn't want to eat she spends part of her life in darkness.  BUT she learns to accept her circumstances and even grows to appreciate them.  She doesn't constantly berate herself because of a decision that she made in her past that shaped her future differently than she would have seen it. 

"Persephone helps us humans understand the power of transformation. She inspires hope.  She comes out of the darkness into the light, and in doing so reminds us that darkness isn’t permanent and she is no longer afraid of the dark part of her life."

Yes, I have changes that I need to make and that I am making.  But I don't have to look at them through the "eyes of the Underworld" all the time.